So I have a friend... she used to be a good friend... or can I say a , "good friend"... She is fun. Mostly fun. She is mostly open minded and in many ways we have the same way of seeing things. I appreciated her especially because she stuck by me. She stuck by me when the whole world ( literally.... the whole world... including family...... but now that I think about it, probably was my creation) left me. Then she changed... or maybe it was me who changed. She became suddenly hostile. Suddenly she didn't mind letting me know that she looked down upon me. Lately she was ultra mean, much more than she used to be.. At the same time, I have been working diligently to improve my relationship with me. As a result I have been loving me more.. really looking at me and seeing the good. I think that is why I couldn't cope with her anymore. She wanted someone who did not love themselves who would put up with whatever she would throw. Finally yesterday she said she no longer wanted to be friends... I tried to remain her friend but she would not have it... She was very categorical, we were done. It felt bad really bad. I felt hurt. I wondered how long this would take to get over. I wondered when next I would be happy...
Fast forward to today. I started by deciding that today was going to be a good day. That today.. .today was going to be a good day. I did my happy girl processes and really could not believe how fast it worked... ( I know.. even after 8 years). I got happy... I am still happy... Sometimes swimming in joy, sometimes just positive but I am happy. I am happy. One day I will forget. One day she will be distant memory but in the meantime; I am happy!
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