WINNN!!!!

So I have been job hunting for about 1.8 months…(what is 17 months?!!) I have become clear that I am no longer able to do uninteresting things for extended periods.  So job hunting was challenging. 

I would get gigs and they were OK for the most part . Nothing soul crushing  or back breaking. 

Every once in a while though things would get really tight and I had to go for whatever was in front of me. They were for the most part uninteresting… and paid little. OK though… it is Kenya money, we give thanks.

I have things that I am interested in, you know, like  writing here which I couldn’t do, because I had other things to worry about, like eating….

End of January 2022 I got an accident. It was bad enough so that the usual things I used to do to survive a month were not possible  anymore. Then I had to become dependent for a while. That works with great difficulty. But the help was available. And for that we give thanks!

Later something terrible happened. It was so bad, so bad and so painful that I had to focus. I had to finally put this knowledge (that is about using my internal environment to make money in my external, real world, environment) into practice. I had to get serious about it. 

I got serious about forgiving, I got serious about making peace with everyone.I got serious about gratitude, I got serious about worthiness  and having a good time regardless of what was happening in my life.

It took a while… about 3 weeks…then things started to change. I started to receive money!  People started to offer me work that paid higher than I was used to getting…I got offered money, I was getting fun projects!!! So basically I was getting paid to have FUN!!!

There was  a small slow down as I recalibrated a new situation that was becoming challenging then got back to business. Then I restarted working my  program …. then YESTERDAY!!!! Something I was doing temporarily, I got offered a trial period  for a month…if I do a good job then it is permanent…(well longer than a month) at higher pay! Thing is…it is a fun gig.. I cannot wait to start!  WHAT!!!! No more desperation! No sadness!! Just good money, coming in fun ways!! 

That is my life now…. 

Would this interest you? 

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Hatred

 Hatred

Well hatred/irritation/anger/discouragement… any emotion that can consume and envelop. Any emotion really that can completely take over you so completely. Any emotion that can take you over completely. 

I have the knowledge that any emotion that we feel will bring something like it into this world. Into the material world. So if I feel angry enough for long enough, other things that make me feel angry show up in my life.  Like if I am angry at let’s say Brian  for lying to me and breaking my heart, other things like that will show up. I will have my spiritual advisor breaking my heart but this time worse, then my boss will fire me for reasons I don’t understand, which will make me angry and break my heart… you get the picture… 

If I want things to change, I have to find a way to feel different. I have to find a way to feel better. I have to forgive all these mofos and let them go completely. I can get my good life back, the life that I can enjoy. It takes focused work. It takes deciding that nothing is more important than that I feel good. And doing everything to ensure that I get to feeling good

I work very hard to do this. I use all my tools, I pray, I write, I meditate, I release. Always with the primary purpose in mind.  

This is my secret to having a happy life with thing coming to me with ease

Healing a Relationship

Dancing me

What does this mean to me? 

When I think about healing a relationship I think about repairing broken or fractured relationships. I think about the ability to remake a relationship that had become difficult and making this relationship easy again. I think about returning to the space of loving relationship. I think about moving past hurts and disagreement and moving toward forgiveness and understanding. 

I think about forgiveness; real forgiveness. Which means to me being able to look at a situation or a thing that previously made us hurt and not feel the hurt anymore.

 I think about difficult relationships, especially those ones that one cannot get away from, and I think about making these relationships easier, even better and happier. And I also think about I think about harmony and congruence inside of the relationship.  I think about returning to a space of love without condition a space of love and joy.

 It is wanting to be happy more than wanting to be right. 

I have had instances when I have had to heal relationships. Situations where I have been hurt by someone I care about. I go through the process of working through my feelings and coming to a space where I had forgiven completely, where I could look at them and not feel even the smallest twinge of hurt or discomfort. Being able to resume a relationship without feeling like a victim. Being able to see things from the other person’s point of view. Being able to be empathetic when necessary. Being able to be clear when communicating and being able to understand what is being said or communicated without colouring it with our own complexes, causing new misunderstandings and new hurts. 

To me, healing a relationship is becoming free, it is getting freedom to be happy to experience joy and love again. To me that is what healing a relationship is. Much love!